Who are you?

I could have said I am cancer
the worse influence you've ever had
a thing that eats up every living cell
a thing that makes you lose your head

I could have said I am darkness
infected with utter contempt
with nothing around but emptiness
something you’ll bitterly resent

I could have said I am nothing
a ridiculous infatuation of your fantasy
a floating ship that’s about to sink
captured by a moment of sheer ecstasy

I could have said I am taken
by an illusion of reality shattered
as I come closer to this godforsaken
place you call your home hazard

I could have said anything hollow
to push you from my side
Instead I just said I don’t know
I’m lost I’m terrified

I’m lost in the depth of your eyes
yielding insight to your soul
to that flickering flame that never dies
not to mention makes me whole

I’m lost in the abyss of your thoughts
among memories I’m drifting down
that inexhaustible river of words
embraced by your notion of love

I’m lost in the eternity of your dreams
I've been lingering on in your world
of deepest and darkest needs
reaching out for your hand to hold

I’m lost in the kindness of your heart
securely concealed behind bars
stripped naked for your works of art
craving to thump beneath the stars

I’m terrified by the very idea
that I wouldn't want to be found
that your mysterious aura
would feel safe and sound