Why prt2

You say you knew me? Why play games? I don't get it
My heart had a bright future till you took that away
I fell for you hard you said you fell for me hard too? I'm just bamboozled by your lack of pride
So if you knew me you would know games are not my style
Why play them seeing you knew me so well?
I've never felt such a pain as deep as this it's painful it's cut so deep I never fucking asked for this

If you knew me you would not of said yes to marriage?
You might not of known you was going to have an affair?
Your heart clearly was not in it for the long run so why say yes?
I think it was a fantasy to have someone from another country like downunder Australia 🇦🇺
If you wanted a player say so and I would not have to be in despair now
I don't mind talking to people if you knew me you would know that

We would of become friends not lovers and I would not now know heartbreak
I know if you knew I was writing this you would tell me to just get over it
It was not me that lied and scammed it was not me that took another
I hate him with so much passion if you only knew what I would of done if he had the balls to face me like a man!
So why all the games you said you would always have my back?

You said you loved my accent, it drove you totally wild
You loved that we spoke on the phone for hours everyday
I kept us fed when you lost your job it was hard but we did it
It was me not him that had your back well I suppose he had you while on your back
I don't say that out of spite just out of being screwed over by the both of you
I wanted revenge so bad on him it ate at me like a cancer that was only for s short time
Now I sit in pain trying to get over all of your whole stupid games

I'm so blue today I can't get out of this hole that you through me in
I should be so pissed off with you maybe I wished I could be?
I just don't know how it's not like I have not tried that's for damn sure
It would make it so much easier to move forward don't you agree?
Every time I think I'm strong enough it backfires and I fall back in
The hole is so dark and deep I wish you could see that,

I miss the children more than anyone knows, we did so much together, I taught them well
They know about me and my homeland, I love you guys 1, 2 and 3
They know me better than you their hearts we're pure
No games played just pure love from them indeed
You could not take their love for me even though you stopped them from talking to me
I inked my skin with their names now on me forever and a day forever it will stay with me at least you can't take that off of me!



Ps

What I'm really trying to say in a nut shell is it can't be put in a nutshell
I miss you like crazy I was to in deep with you I don't know how you did it
It's called true love well on my part at least, I forgave you a long time ago
People say I should hate your guts well I've tried suppose that's why it's called true love
You put my head into a tailspin I can't seem to catch myself from this vicious circle that it has me in, writing is the only thing keeping me sane
I suppose I'll go now and stop wasting your day reading my ink stain.