The Power of the Purge

I thought I'd share something I posted on The Google Erotic Writers Group in response to one of their polls. Thanks.

I guess I saw this and wanted to add. I was 11 I think. The awareness began very early with me lol. Actually earlier than that. I always have a joke that I was horny from the womb lol. There was this guy named Del in my school. He knew I really liked him too. Eleven year old playa lol. I think he knew exactly the effect he had on me and he purposefully talked to me to see my crazed reaction to him. Back then before the invention of the wheel girls were really into wearing white slippers. Those were really cool then. I had a pair I wore so much they turned grey. I remember one of my lines about him, which were fevered young attempts at verbally expressing and purging the lust: When Del passes by me I tremble in my little white slippers lol. I did honestly have indirect sexual abuse. My stepdad was a very frustrated man who really didn't want to be married to my mom I realize now with the eyes of an adult. He drank all day long. But it's okay. I understand a lot of things now I didn't understand then. And I think sexual awakening happens very early for some, and I don't see anything wrong with it in my viewpoint. I was very angry at him though. Actually I experienced horrible rage for him. He was very physically abusive too. Just a very angry and frustrated man who had a very hard life and had suffered horrible poverty as a child. As a young man he sold rabbits to make money. But I had one of those little cedar boxes... And I somehow learned... If I showed my anger I got hit. So I started writing him filthy notes. Expressing all my anger and rage in filthy language. And for some reason if I wrote those notes and put them in that little box... I was okay afterwards. I think I got addicted to the release after a while. And that little box got stuffed with notes after a while. I still remember the smell of it. I will always love the smell of cedar. I guess that might not have to do with writing erotica, but... I think that's when I started getting acquainted with the power of the purge. Thanks and good luck to everyone in their writing.