Side Effect

I always wanted to pull you away from all of the chatter
And noise. Darling, as much as I want to hear the clatter
Of everything else, I wanted to drag you away into both
The light and dark to see you better. The steady growth
And loudness of my heartbeat is only the side effect
Of your presence. It is what you have on me. You wrecked
Any confidence I once had because you are far more
Beautiful than what I had in my head. You give my core
Goosebumps and a fire that burns deep. I try to combat
Everything, but how am I supposed to move on from that?
You were supposed to help me get over the heartbreak,
Not the one to cause it. You lay your claim and stake
On me because I am not so sure if I belong to anyone
Else, but you. Any hope of being able to walk or run
Away from you is gone because I am still standing right
Here, not moving. I am too afraid to move and take flight,
But I am also too terrified to stay rooted in the same spot.
There will be a day when the feelings will not be too caught
Up in something that could be there, but for now I have to
Realize that my deep and dark feelings never outgrew you.