The never-ending thunder (Poem)

There were empty spaces between us
And I couldn't tolerate them anymore
Cause' I needed you in my life
I wanted to feel your lips on mine
And touch you all over

Everyday, I came to school;
Hoping to see you there;
Noticing everything you did;
wearing the same shirt everyday
And being sarcastic and goofy

But, you never looked at me
You didn't feel the way I did
I dreaded it, but did it;
touched your hand and went away
And later, blushed furiously

I was heads over heals to you
A boy was in love with a boy
Yes, I was gay:
in other words;
one of us were

That's when gears changed
You started talking to me
Ate lunch with me
Made me feel more important
And shattered me to bits

In an empty classroom made out with me
Knocked me out with a pill
Deprived me from my clothes
Took pics of my bare body
And put your clothes back on and left

Next day, rumors spread in the school
Everyone thought I made out with myself
I felt ashamed and couldn't look at anyone
It was like a never-ending thunder;
Me being the lightning's target

I wasn't even allowed in my own house
Disowned by my own parents
Breaking the rules of a catholic family
So much punishment, for being gay;
that it tore my heart out


There was a way out of this
I could just kill myself
And there'd be no more trouble
Anyways, what did I have left?
Pain, only pain...[/font]