Inner pain

I just wanna pass
So I can be at rest ,
That's all I ask
I gave it my best .
This inner pain
It hurts so bad ,
Like I got hit by a train
I'm just so sad .
I must itch the scabs
When I'm asleep ,
This pain I have
Hurts in my dreams .
The cuts reopen
When I awake ,
It's got me mopin'
There's no more I can take .
Wounds so deep
Impossible to heal ,
This pain that I keep
I wish someone would steal .
Years of masking
Only made it worse ,
It's got me begging
To see my hearse .
If you could see my heart
It's lost it's shape ,
Full of scars
Flooded with hate .
My soul is damaged
From the wrong I've done ,
It not how I planned this
I wish I was numb .
My life has no gain
I can't be free ,
This inner pain
I just can't release ~
B.