Between two lives

One is running to the place where
He likely don't want to be. There
You have to be because you "have"
Is that okay for your another half?
The one who knows exactly who you are
The one in you when another one is far
Number two but the only one real
Which one you think you really feel?
One is to live like "they say"
Two is your own clear face
The one you care about most or only
Two you hardly know or see too slowly
To discover it in you. Sometimes
You waste on that couple of lives
One is in front to show to "them"
Two is hidden always and when
You let it go it takes you over
You hide it quick like you hide a lover
So ugly you think, so wrong, so bad
But deep inside it beautiful and that
Your real "you", your only life to live
To that one I must say "forgive"