OMG! CONGRATULATIONS!!!

He's having a baby..
Why does this hurt me?
I'm over you.
Don't even want anything to do with you.
But love decided its hiding and put away.
Not gone.
Just tucked away for a second.
The tug on my heart strings.
Made everything stop for a second.
Why do I wish that was me and not her.
Then again I'm glad it isn't me.
I pray he doesn't cheat on her too.
I pray old habits,
Bad habits,
Leave him and is the best father I know he'd be.
I wish nothing but the best for him.
I do.
I really do.
But ouch.
Why does it still hurt me.
Love of you,
Be gone from me.
I chanced you.
Never again.
So why is it bothering me.
"Omg! Congratulations!!!
I'm so happy for you!!
Thanks I'm excited!!"
Ughh I am happy for him tho.
But I'm hurt by it also.
I'm in love with my ex.
But I know he isn't good for me,
So I don't let love get in my way for what's best for me.
Hurts knowing that could've been me.
Although it just wasn't meant to be.