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Chemical empathy is pure self-indulgence and selfishness.
It had been a long time he had felt anything real.
Weekdays of depressive comedowns, weekends of mdma bliss.
Pressed up against naked flesh was the only time he could feel.

This transmission of verse, a gaping hole in his life.
Drugs electronic music and transitory relationships filled it quite well.
Chems wearing off and threat of violence in the air.
Cut through the haze that lone taste of guilt his first tell.

People started to filter out lead the dark silhouette away.
The violence in the air faded so too the guilt.
Sneezing, choking on the chemical drip.
Crushed pills were snorted on the weak foundation we had built.

Dark music was ominous and mysterious.  
Take them into the other room and fuck them instead.
Enveloped by the familiar calming half-darkness.
White knuckled rictus grip attempt to placate my death bed.

Laid in the dark silence chems fade away.
Mind torture, wish for sleep. Chest panic, seizing up. Tight.
Fear of taking it too far this time, shift position ease my heart.
Scared of moving too much, try remain still and calm, Despite-

-Hearing the static with those voices outside the window.
Sits up, lays down. Suicidal flirtations. Overthinking the irrelevant.
Desperate try retain calm composure, chest panic, shifting position.
Dark silhouette with knives, the room filled with fear and resentment.