The crippled soul

You asked me once why am I so angry,
So full of rage that not even the presents under the tree nor the children in their beds , could change my dark demeanor  
 
I ignored you and just stared back with my piercing gaze, a gaze that could shatter rock, set water alight and even turn the happiest of smiles upside down
 
My answer is not quite so easy that I would just tell it to any ninny who approached me,
No matter how pure you seem
I simply don't trust you
 
For I was wronged deep in my soul, deeper than the deepest and darkest abyss  
 
I was wronged by the one everyone is led to believe will save them from any trouble, who would sacrifice themselves to save you  
 
And though I still don't dare to speak the name, the face of my assailant will forever be in my mind.  
 
That is why I stare back at you with such rage and hate for I will never again trust someone because that day something inside me shattered and the fragments of what once was are too far and small to ever hope to be reclaimed
 
So I must Apologize my love  
For I cannot marry you