Fuck

The days grow shorter and my instability is starting to surface. My mental incapability is becoming a regular everyday nuisance as i struggle to find meaning in my bleak existence. Life holds no excitement and certainly no comfort for me in these days to come. I look at things through the eyes of an alien who is looking at these emotions that are so foreign they can not possibly be understood. My feelings, my emotions, they seem to be cold and fleeting. The only thing i can rely on to stay is that feeling of never ending sadness and despair, my mind is empty and my heart is barely beating. Will i ever be able to live or am i forever frozen in this abyss of emptiness...