damaged by thoughts

who goes there, i shure did not, but yet if i did how could i, how would i
would i ever come back from such a shark attck, would i let my mind sail or crash this ship
watch me wreck it, i tell my self. how could you possibly know the deepest seas i have sailed. you made me this way. leave this mess. Learn your structure. for you are no better than i. such a complex perception, for mine i choose to be blurry. watch me fade. watch me fade. please watch me fade into a distance so near. i walked this path before. i saw where it leads to. the monster i became. the life i said no to. set the ship for sail. a captain is always ready. but who are you to fear when the mind has feared me not? i lay within the waves of anger. who goes there, i shure did not.