Understand This

Touch the soft parts of my soul
And try to understand all of my
Hard edges. Come and roll

Over with me as we always lie
Hand to hand facing the sunlight.
You never ask me the reasons why

I am afraid of the dark. In spite
Of having your protection, it is not
Consistent enough to keep the fight

Against loneliness at bay as I sought
Some kind of peace. We are leaving
But I cannot continue to plan and plot

Our roadmap without believing
In our final destination. Every pit
Stop and road bump got me deceiving

The truth. Everything will split
And tear me apart, leaving me
Completely paralyzed. Let me quit

And leave this race before you see
The dishonesty. I do not want you
To see the hurt. I hope you agree

To let everything go. The blue
Skies are turning cloudy and grey
If only you completely knew

How much I try to keep things at bay.
Feelings and expressing them are
Not my strongest suite. Every jay

That sings its song is leaving a scar.
Understand that I am not the strongest
Or weakest. I am mediocre, not a star.