eyes open

Lost too much time in life trying to conform
conforming to a set standard set by folks who had no business setting standards of any sort
so instead of building up my wing muscles to fly
I sat searching for gills to breathe under water
cos I had to be a certain way
a certain way I was not meant to be
so I lost my way
and the worst part
I didn't even know I was lost
in my mind I was striving to reach a set standard
judging myself by benchmarks not meant for me
failing in a world where I should not have been trying to succeed
letting that failure define me instead of standing on the back of that failure and propelling myself to success
but I was lost
lost trying to conform when I should have been trying to find myself
no time for regrets now that I stumbled on to myself
in the art that most said was a waste of my time
and yet I have to now devote all of my time, wasting none, to it
I found myself when I stopped trying to meet their standards
set my own standards for myself
and even if I fail
at least I failed being what I was meant to be
that failure won't define me
it would just be another chapter in my life's story
how that story ends
entirely up to me
at least I stopped conforming and started performing
performing my role in the movie that is my life... The lead