Forever as promised

Endless hours I spent
a grovelling biTch
firm at your foot; where tears fell  pathetically
testing my endurance
Tormented I stood for your affections  
unsuspecting paranoia drowned me hard
Though I gave up my lungs far too willingly
if it meant you'd take a breath in my proximity
Devoted to a selfish whore (and her selfish whore activities)
Tore me right apart scouring the earth for more
Entrapment in tired acceptance  
exhausted all distractions  
The answer now lies in indulgence  
 repulsive thoughts coaxed to darkness
a burdened, tarred heart
will display grievance scribbled in blood for decades to come