What I want~

I've always done what I thought
I was supposed to do
Never doing what I want
Since I was sixteen
A girlfriend to a person
Not capable of love
I was a mother to children
That weren't mine
Eventually having children
Of my own
As young as I was
I did what I was supposed to do
Being happy on the outside
While suffering inside
Waiting for the miserable
Loveless drunk to finally come home
All the while knowing where he's been
But saying nothing
Because that's what I was supposed to do
Year's have past
The children have grown
Memories they share are bitter sweet
I did what I was supposed to do
They are my everything
I'm not young anymore
Year's of being verbally abused
Have made me strong
What I want
Is becoming clear
I've always done what he wants
And now
I've hardened my heart
When it comes to him
He showed me his true self
These past couple of year's
What I want
Is to live my own life
Isn't that what I was always
Supposed to do