THE VALUE OF NOTHING

THE VALUE OF NOTHING

Nobody told me about this side of life
The dark and eerie
The secrets of sinners
Lost and mislead
The one I put myself in

Been little Debbie broke
That's 2 honey buns shared
Over 3 square meals
Slept with the tv on
Sound of static drown the noise of hunger
Had my priorities more fucked up
Then Eric Wright had priority

Seen my brother forced to the streets
Falsely accused
And called upon way to soon
6 years after my mother suffered
2 rounds of chemo couldn't stop it
Doctors that waited to long  
She fought to hold on
But eventually even the strongest is called on
2 great souls the lord stole

And the bastard still won't leave us alone
 
Had flashbacks 2 months ago Watching my pops bedridden
On more morphine then the whole line combined
At the methadone clinic
10 after 5 he took that final  breathe
5:10 the last real man left

All the pain being suffered
And you want praise
Coward acting bitch
You ain't sacrifice your offspring Paid to have your son killed
So he couldn't tell about all the bullshit
In your name I pray
That you burn in that fire you threaten of

Slipped back to my old ways
Like 2001 on replay  
On that coke  again
Chopping lines for days
Pretending
Lying I'm ok
While having suicidal thoughts
Hiding crying staring in the mirror
Thinking grow the fuck up
You to damn old
Get that straw from your nose
For once I listened
Did as I was told

Removed it to use to load a bowl
From Lady White to Miss Tina
In love instantly
She's a bad bitch
Irresistible after 1 date
A street bitch
With a powerful hit
A demanding bitch
Whatever you have she takes
With no remorse
Doing whatever to keep her from running away
Laughing cause you paranoid afraid to go out
Have you locked in keeping family and friends out

No second guessing who's in control now
How quick things have changed now
Lost my income
Dodging the landlord
Rent a center beating on the door
Owe the dealer for 2 teens
Laying naked on floor
As blood flows
From a hole that caused my brains to fall out
Another man who couldn't take it  
One who wasn't waiting for another to decide his faith
One who finally got his way

To who it may concern
Sorry you had to find me
It's ok to turn around never speaking of what you seen
Theirs nobody to inform
My family already left
I wasn't a bad guy
Just a lost man who lost it all
Who ended up selling my soul
Cause I refused to listen
Kept chasing that feeling
My existence was never needed
Save yourself the trouble like the rest did
Just keep walking by
Act like nothing happen
Save your heroics for somebody who's worth something