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Normal
talking and walking
my mind’s up in space
wanting the world
yet I do nothing
the people I love
don’t love me
but that’s only the depression talking
pay it no mind
It will fade in wasted time
still
It kills
and I just want to feel
normal
back in black
hole in my soul
where I go
no one knows
playing songs
so many years ago
wondering if I can find
away back to that time
because lately
when people say they need me
I don’t believe it
believe me
It’s a roller coaster of ups and downs
screaming to get me the fuck off!!
I just want to feel
normal
I want my friends to feel wonderful
for they don’t have to be miserable
like I am miserable
still, I fuck that all up
the 100 other voices are perverted and violent
wish I could kill them all
get back to silence
hate my mindset
and others do too
but that’s just my thoughts racing
sitting here thinking
wishing I could be
normal
what I see
others won’t
what I crave
others don’t
hiding away the fact
that I’m so fucking sick
don’t want the easy way
refuse to take the meds today
don’t want to walk around
like another fucking zombie
I have a love/hate relationship with my insanity
still I wish I could be all and everything
but I can’t, and that hurts
so I rather settle for
normal
my mind’s up in space
wanting the world
yet I do nothing
the people I love
don’t love me
but that’s only the depression talking
pay it no mind
It will fade in wasted time
still
It kills
and I just want to feel
normal
back in black
hole in my soul
where I go
no one knows
playing songs
so many years ago
wondering if I can find
away back to that time
because lately
when people say they need me
I don’t believe it
believe me
It’s a roller coaster of ups and downs
screaming to get me the fuck off!!
I just want to feel
normal
I want my friends to feel wonderful
for they don’t have to be miserable
like I am miserable
still, I fuck that all up
the 100 other voices are perverted and violent
wish I could kill them all
get back to silence
hate my mindset
and others do too
but that’s just my thoughts racing
sitting here thinking
wishing I could be
normal
what I see
others won’t
what I crave
others don’t
hiding away the fact
that I’m so fucking sick
don’t want the easy way
refuse to take the meds today
don’t want to walk around
like another fucking zombie
I have a love/hate relationship with my insanity
still I wish I could be all and everything
but I can’t, and that hurts
so I rather settle for
normal
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Re. Normal
Anonymous
18th Oct 2016 11:02am
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18th Oct 2016 11:13am
I am very much me, hehe ^^
That's not always a good thing :-p
Thanks for reading
That's not always a good thing :-p
Thanks for reading
Re. Normal
I know this feeling all to well... keep in mind that it's depression talking!
This is such a great write... raw and unfiltered emotions, yet you paid so much attention to detail!
You are very talented and please don't ever become totally normal ;-)
P.S. I see you...
This is such a great write... raw and unfiltered emotions, yet you paid so much attention to detail!
You are very talented and please don't ever become totally normal ;-)
P.S. I see you...
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19th Oct 2016 6:06pm
I do keep it in mind. Just have to force myself some days.
And I won't be too normal 😉
P.S. I see you too 🤓
And I won't be too normal 😉
P.S. I see you too 🤓
Re. Normal
18th Oct 2016 12:12pm
DC this poem broke my heart because I understand the feelings expressed so well I hate being medically restrained sometimes rather live with my demons.. a brave write that many will identify with..
sending my love and thoughts..
xx Brenda
sending my love and thoughts..
xx Brenda
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19th Oct 2016 6:09pm
I know medication is very important for some. I just don't want that to be my first answer.
It also makes me sad that you have to go through that.
My love and thoughts go your way too Crim 😊
It also makes me sad that you have to go through that.
My love and thoughts go your way too Crim 😊
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Anonymous
18th Oct 2016 12:30pm
A sad, raw write. One that many can identify with.
You aren't alone.
((Hugs)) 💓
You aren't alone.
((Hugs)) 💓
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19th Oct 2016 6:15pm
I know a lot of people suffer. I think depression only makes you feel alone.
Those hugs help 😁
Those hugs help 😁
Re. Normal
18th Oct 2016 2:01pm
I wonder if you realized the shape of your poem is an arrow pointing down...or an anchor? I don't think there's a single definition for "normal." I for one, appreciate you for you...whatever normal you're going through. Be you, it's a much more beautiful thing than normal. :)
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19th Oct 2016 6:29pm
I guess it does kind of look like that 😄
The normal I'm talking about in this poem is more of feeling like one's self. The mind can make you feel not like you. I'm just saying I want to feel like me again.
Thanks for enjoying 😁
The normal I'm talking about in this poem is more of feeling like one's self. The mind can make you feel not like you. I'm just saying I want to feel like me again.
Thanks for enjoying 😁
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19th Oct 2016 8:33pm
Ahh, my mistake. It's interesting the different ways people interpret the same words. I hope you feel more like you again too. :)
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Re. Normal
18th Oct 2016 3:02pm
The internal struggle is real. There are portions of this that describe how I feel in my own life sometimes. Stay vigilant in your own fight and you will emerge victorious.
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20th Oct 2016 5:06am
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19th Oct 2016 1:39am
Normal is just an illusion,a label we are expected to wear. I find myself wondering who the normal person was that decided we should all be the same. I don't think they were on that rollercoaster with the rest of us...
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20th Oct 2016 5:08am
I think unnormal is normal. I just mean more like not feeling like myself.
Glad you could enjoy 😁
Glad you could enjoy 😁
Re. Normal
19th Oct 2016 1:33pm
i relate to the case my friend. I pray for my friends and family I do everything i can for them and they don't give a fuck. I got divorced 4 months ago and i am all alone with my teen daughter. No one have come to my house to ask Brigitte do you need something or just to support me NOONE after all i have done for them. So now i focus on my daughter and me. They can suck my non exciting you know what D... HAHAHAHAHA
Love your writing i HOPE mine gets better. LOVE YA!
Love your writing i HOPE mine gets better. LOVE YA!
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20th Oct 2016 5:25pm
Don't be down on your writing 😁
It is yours, and that makes it special.
Thanks for reading
It is yours, and that makes it special.
Thanks for reading
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20th Oct 2016 3:37am
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20th Oct 2016 5:26pm