Confusion

I'm not gay
but I have fallen in love with a guy
I don't know if it is selfish or
if it is real.
He is great,but I just feel baited in
He liked me before I liked him
He has a good heart,but he tries hard to be perfect
and it frustrates me.
I treat him how I would a girl,but something just doesn't feel right.
Is it me? Am I overthinking?
I am afraid to break if off because nothing will be the same.
I am afraid we will not be friends anymore and I don't want that to happen.
I know he is busy,but I just want his attention.
I try to be patient,but it just upsets me.
When I see the words he sends,it doesn't match what the words he says.
I don't feel the love because we hide it.
Is it me?
There is too much confusion
and I just need to release.
Is it because I'm not gay? Is it because he is gay?
Am I just overthinking and just rushing thing?
Help me find a solution before the heartache sets in...