little girl lost

That "little girl lost," YOU, are riding a wave of forever reaching back in your desperate fight for life. And that light you so desperately seek is there. Keep looking. Keep telling us about your search. I know you will find what you are struggling to find. Keep on, keeping on.

thank you Jerry I'm the one guilty of keeping her locked away in the darkness now for fear of some sort.. we are journeying as a poetic family a real family finding love and acceptance allows me let her out and see the light that is there..  
 
love Brenda

I completely understand, and approve, (not that you need my approval), you are doing the right thing in order to assemble her world with the good, the bad, and the ugly. She will work her way through it and will emerge a whole, better person.

thank you Jerry for your uplifting comment..

love Brenda

Brenda...this is heartbreaking, gut wrenching, mortifying ......instantly making eyes bleary..no words to express properly how deeply moving this is...

thank you for KDAmB for the love and compassion you've shown me today..  
 
love Brenda

Dear Crim, what a heartbreaking piece!
I don't have the words to express how this moves me...

Stay strong, one day you find the light ♥

Love, Duende

thank you lovely Duende for the love this write makes me feel a bit naked and vulnerable..

love Crim

You know where she is. Bringing her to heal is harder than people can possibly understand. When you protect her for so long. She will fight to be brought out from the protected box we place them in.
🙏Trish
 you are not alone friend

thank you beautiful Trisha for the love and compassion it's deeply appreciated while I remain scarred and overprotective of my inner child I know I will heal in time..

love Brenda

I can relate

thank you and welcome to du hugging your inner child that can relate to this..  
 
love Crim

What an incredibly brave write!  Your story could have been mine.  I was fortunate to be handed over to a loving home.  It's actually pretty amazing the different turns our lives take.  Two people can have similar events in their lives and wind up in wildly different places.  It's not fair and it doesn't make sense...so is life.  Thank you for letting us in to love you more!😘

thank you lovely Sara so happy to hear you went to a loving family.. I eventually was placed with my dad after foster care but I remained scarred and am having to deal with a dual personality as a result I think.. I deeply appreciate the love you've shown me and for sharing your story..

love Brenda

My hot fresh tears fall upon the face of this child who is no longer lost, for she is loved, precious soul.

ever
Jade xo

thank you lovely Jade my inner child is still journeying homeward.. I deeply appreciate the love you've shown me..

love Brenda

Such a heartwrenching piece. 💓
So raw and honest.
You are a reflection of amazing strength.

Deeply moving ink.

thank you lovely Heart for such a loving comment..

love Crim

I keep reading this one, over and over. I'm struck by the little girl in the closet...and how often I've heard the term or felt it. In my mind it seems as though there are a lot of children in those closets. Does that mean none of us are alone? It's a thought that soothes me for some reason. Lovely write :)

thank you lovely Willow this was meant in the literal and metaphorical sense.. metaphorically many of us and I myself included find ourselves still locked and hidden away our inner child never seeing the light.. in the literal this is a true story a part of my life.. my mom was schizophrenic and my older brothers would lock me in a darkened closet I remember reaching with my fingers underneath the door just to touch the light.. I'm glad sharing my story let you know our inner children are not alone in this pain..  
 
love to you dear one..  
 
Brenda

I'm glad you were finally able to find your way Crim.  You're a beautiful survivor, and I'm sure this write took a great deal of courage.  This is heartbreaking to read but well worth it. Truly fine work!

thank you Sir Crow though in honesty I'm still fighting to find my way.. thank you for the love you've shown me and this write..

love Crim

thank you it is sad I've kind of detached myself from the child I was and what happened.. seems I need to embrace her..

love Crim

The foster care system can be so fucked in some instances and so beautiful in others. I am sorry your experience was so horrific. No child should have to endure such emotional and physical suffering at the hands of adults. Some people seem to forget how precious children are to the continuation of our specie's legacy. Thank goodness some such as yourself make their way out strong enough to make such a positive difference in society and the arts.

thank you Sage one yes the foster care system was cold reality for me though like others have shared there are many loving families out there that nurture hurting children.. fortunately for me my dad was able to get custody of me.. unfortunately I grew up emotionally scarred and a problem child.. seeking my true voice through poetry.. I hope I can make a positive difference that was a beautiful thing for you to say of my poetry I deeply appreciate it..  
 
love Brenda

thank you lovely Amelia you know I was regretting sharing this when I woke up.. though reading your comment I realize I can't always shroud myself in darkness and metal spikes.. your compassion and beautiful loving wings are deeply felt.. love Crim

wow this is truly heartfelt .....
beautiful

thank you Vick for the love..

love Crim

This is very sad. I think people who grow up in hard ways have a hard time dealing with everyday life. I myself been through a lot of crap in my childhood.

My love and good wishes go out to you 🤗

thank you DC for the understanding my heart goes out to you as well for hard road in childhood..

love Crim

I desperately wanted to be a foster child and to know the detachment that would have brought, but I  wouldn't have wanted your experience for anything.

Thank you for your write. What a great shame these people had no love to give when I'm sure even a little would have gone a very long way...

I'm grateful you didn't feel that kind of detachment as I know myself to be a bit detached from the child I was and it causes my mind harm..

thank you for your kind thoughts..

love Crim

Brenda.. so amazed by your strength.. and your ability to honestly share.. this was a very teary-eyed read for me.. the pain you went through is so unfair.. it's troubling to me, the cards we're dealt in life.. but to see you fight, brings hope to me.. that this life is tough, but the will to survive is something we can all strive for.. thank you for sharing.. love you!!



Dave

thank you Dave just a part of a journey we're all on we all have rocks and pot holes in the road..

I deeply appreciate the love..

love Brenda

My ladyloves, I believe we were
sent to each for a purpose
because I swear:

my closet
a broken pencil
and crumpled paper

were my mother and father
my siblings and best friend

and now my lover..

this just tore me up! I want
to hug and squeeze you
something aweful like...

can't explain , just cant

-Howlings

I believe that too beautiful Howlings
thank you for gracing my pages
with your wisdom and love
I cherish you lovely lady..

love Crim

tough to read something like this,
tough to know it happened to anyone at all, but it did.

we have to face the fact that it takes tough truth like this to set her free,
& get her far away from that place...

tough to revisit this write John thank you for the love hoping the child in me will come out of that darkened place..  
 
love Crim

you do not pull punches
& i can feel this one
rattling my bones
xo

I love you beautiful Katja..

xo Brenda

Todski your experience cuts me to my core.. I'm hurting for that child in you who was abused like this..  I feel your strength cutting through my darkness shining light where it's still sore..

love Brenda

this is a poignant entry in the comp, and a testament to rising above by reaching for the light and not giving up..

thank you graciously beautiful PR...

love Brenda 💕