Bittersweet Symphony Recorded

A bitter sweet symphony indeed,
Cast in defeat it seems,
a catastrophe as I fall to my knees,
fast life living to commiserating miseries in a heart beat,

I'm left asking why has this happened to me?
like if I repeat this disastrous scene-
can I see what it actually means?
And give back these demons that terrorize my dreams?

this tragedy is snapped to my back like a monkey,
too fucking lucky i didn't hurt anybody,
Physically I mean, it destroyed my self esteem-
and rattled my beliefs,

So I am forced to wrestle my inner beast,
and look at a reality in pieces to see that-
Maybe I needed to be speechless,
to realize my inner weakness,

Maybe I need me some Jesus?
Please, I'm going to lace up these Adidas,
No genius, but I got a thesis,
Mind over matter; psychokinesis,

So till I'm deceased my biggest enemy will be me,
better believe I'll sharpen my mentally-
as I roll up these sleeves,
and focus the energy o f my being,

You see, this valley is so deep,
the peak means  my victory will be complete,
I pity those who haven't figured out this mystery,
that life liberties are sweetest after injury,