I Ain't Mad At Ya

   
what are we doin here?   
you ask..  
hey..i don't mind you    
takin me to task..  
you wanna bask in it all  
you wanna freefall  
but that grown woman in you  
gotta protect that heart..  
not tryna be rude  
but finish what you start dude  
is what you say  
without sayin  
i read you..  
heed what you're conveyin  
i know you ain't playin  
gotta step up to the plate  
cuz i don't want that love-hate thing  
to become inverted..  
drama can be averted..  
if my true intentions  
are asserted..  
and my bullshit assorted  
we know you can't afford it  
the wasting of time i mean  
not at this age..  
ain't tryin to court your rage  
so i'll just take a page out my past  
learn from them lessons  
and give you a real confession  
no..we ain't gonna last  
i know you can't handle the truth  
but in the end  
i hope you'll respect the man  
can't give you my all  
but maybe there's another    
who can  
and maybe you can plan  
to build with someone    
who will place you  
at the center of his life..  
   
   
AUTHOR'S NOTE  
circa 2000  
this is a brief relationship i engaged in  
after the split from my fiancee    
i was damaged goods at that time  
and the woman i refer to in this poem  
truly deserved better than what i had    
to offer..which wasn't much at all...