Girl

[font=Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Grande]"After Doreen left, I wondered why I couldn't go the whole way doing what I should any more. This made me sad and tired. Then I wondered why I couldn't go the whole way doing what I shouldn't, the way Doreen did, and this made me even sadder and more tired." - Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar  
 
Everyone wants a sip of youth to  
Taste or to keep -  
I have a bottle going bad,  
But I can't figure it out.  
   
They like me in my high tops,  
50s dress, mary janes, skinny jeans -  
I wish I didn't see uptight, but  
Sophisticated.  
Not mere disarray -  
I wish I looked more like chaos.  
   
Red roses and flags.  
   
Beware loving  
The girls with bell jars hanging overhead.  
Try to get close - the glass drops,  
The edge crushing you or  
You    
Get locked out, no way to touch her,  
No way she could hear your heartbeats.  
   
Beware dancing  
With girls who trip on air.  
   
Music will play.  
Rock music will pl-  
No, jazz will pla-  
No, pop.  
No, country.  
Classical?  
Fuck it, something you've never heard of will play.  
   
Watch it. They do.    
   
They sing it, they write it,  
They paint it -  
Madonna and The Whore.  
   
See, the problem with some boys, men  
The problem with some poets,  
They drown in amber, in red haze  
And think they're the only    
Ones  
Who could break    
Hearts  
And feel heartbreak.  
   
Up here, Ms. Smarty  
Lie down, m'lady  
Bend over, Ms. Edgy  
Ms. Broken, Ms. Understood,  
Ms. Eyes, Ms. Lips, Ms. Body,  
Heart  
Words  
2edgy4u  
Where's the good in pedestals?  
   
Sometimes  
(Almost always),  
I don't know what I want.  
To be just C, tpd  
Just Girl  
Girl that maybe someone likes  
Girl that someone may be falling in love with  
Girl you know  
Girl  
   
Funny, I wished I was spark.
With bad poetry.
   
Sometimes I want to be everything.  
All at once.  
Sometimes it's not pretty.  
 
Low Spark - http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/135902-low-spark/
   
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QkubQCI4Fxo  
 
Photo: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind