Sincerely a Broken Heart

My eyes hurt, my heart, its not where it once was
I pray, i listen i lerk to make this work
I'm afraid, i'm angry, i'm mad, i'm confused, i'm lost, i'm just a kid that hopes someday it will work
I don't know how to pray anymore
at night i only wish i wasn't sitting in my room alone
i gotta believe i can do more than survive
because if i don't then i'm at the edge of my life
if you look me in my eyes you'll see theirs more than what there appears to be
i want to ask for help but how can i do that when i'm leading a pack
a pack of others that count on me to be there
like a solider in the dark of the night
if i break then they break
so my pain i wont show in front of them
my tears they don't fall, my heart i give it all
an my smile is what keeps me from a fall
so tonight i'll close this page, with the thought that everything will be alright