Lonely

Surrounded my family and love
In a home of faith in the Lord above
At night, my mind soaks thoughts unsaid
Surrounded by hope, in filled with dread


In a sea of people, all they see a pretty smile
But they never notice that I hide my pain
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I simply disappeared for a while
No, I silently fight my demons left unslain


From subtle whispers to  outlandish screams
I can't escape my sea of dreams
People say I seem so bright
If only they saw what I think at night


Loneliness is a familiar feeling
People see only what I met them see
But in realty, my mind is reeling
My only wish is my demons let me be


Love, I know ît can be true
For only some people I feel it to
When around them, I feel happiness when I speak
Around them, life doesn't seem so bleak


Lonely is a strong word
I feel it often that is true
I wish I were a bird
To ease my emotions in a sky of blue



Freedom is what I crave
Free of demons and dreams
To my mind, I am a slave
My mouth silent yet my heart screams


People only want to see the surface
No deeper do they wish to look further
I have seen God and his grace
Also the dark Lucifer


What my mind speaks
They will never know
On my porcelain face a river leaks
They never notice me, only my show


I am the porcelain doll they made me
Eyes bluer than the bluest sea
A face that shows perfection
And a mask to house my inner destruction


Yes I am lonely
Only those who feel it can see
For you,I smile momentarily
The show is starting, would you care to join me?