The Pain

The Pain

One foot in the grave
I guess it's safe to say
But that's the price you pay
I didn't choose to live this way
Lost afraid to see
what's to become of me
No faith
Lost face
My strength
Now hate  
I pray each day
God take this life from me
I shake awake can't break
These chains won't set me free
So why feel the pain
As it comes around again
Like it did before
I can't complain
I guess I'm the one to blame
Everything I've done
Can't make it go away

Beg for change deranged
It's either feast of famine
Drink to ease my pain
To try and numb the damage
I swallow pride to feed
The will inside that's dying
In dreams I hold my kids
Wake up alone and crying
To scare to die
Afraid of living
Have I become
A plague in this world so unforgiving
I lost my way
But took the time today
I asked the Lord to save my life for me
Down on my knees
Oh God I'm begging please
My faith
Now strength
I pray
You'll take this pain Away
God give me strength to stay
I can't remove the past
I can't change yesterday
Given this new strength
conquering old hate
removing the darkness
That cripples again and again
Back on my own feet
Leaving these cold streets
my failures can't stop me
From being to person I want to be
Believing in something
So someone believes in me
I'm leaving this empty incomplete
Man I use to be.