how many

How many fake smiles and laughs must I give today
I should get an Oscar for this role I play
How many times have I got to look away
Being worn down by this character I portray
Shutting up and putting up seems my only way
Whatever it takes to survive another day
How many times must I sit around the hearsay
Listening to the old faithful oh I would have done it this way
Call me a coward because I never speak up and say
But debates can be like looking for needles in a stack of hay