Cocaine Blues

Wow. What a magnificently profound piece of word-honesty, Crim.
I believe poetry will save your life - and that of others who stumble
along the path to fall into anxiety's lair.

Excellent imagery, raw honesty, vulnerable emotions.

thank you most graciously sage one I'm holding tight to poetry today..

love Crim

"I'm not using daily anymore    
so there's that"

Please don't ever start back to snorting daily.
Later on go two days without doing lines. I
know the pull of coke . . . I also believe you
have the will power to get off the fucking shit.
If you are spacing out the days without . . .
That is a fantastic start!

thank you Jerry I won't go back to the everyday trap of it at the moment trying to get the demon from tempting me at all..

love Brenda

That is some hard hitting, overflowing with anger and emotion write there. The poem is excellent by the way, whether bled or created you are a damn fine writer.

thank you most graciously Honey :)

love Crim

'I'm trying to abstain      
the beast in me biting at it's chains...'

Cocaine is not the only one... you have a really strong poetry beast too.  Great to see you feeding her again.

you're right I'm a junkie for writing I need to hold fast to that..

love Crim

you can tell by the comments how we feel for this, Crim;
we'd rather see you write poetry than doin those fcked up lines...

thank you John i'll do my best to stick to the lines in my writes..

love Crim

Crimson,

I don't envy your demons
Or that of its wrath
Comprehend its semen
Destruction of path

Struggles the same
A monsterious constraint
Falter we train
Intrusions aquaint

Finding perspective
A struggle at best
Ominous directive  
Every moment a test

<3dkruie

thank you Dkruie for such an insightful poem comment..

love Crim

Crim I have nothing to give you except my sincere prayers for strength in your battle.
Your honesty and fortitude in this write are inspiring. Never give up, you are helping us all!

thank you gratefully I'm feeling better than I was this morning and writing about it did help..

love Crim

well, I for one am sooooo glad and PROUD that you are writing this NON fucked up poem....I hold you tightly in my embrace My Beautiful Brenda, placing kisses upon your face....as Poe always says....BLACK....BLACK is the best....even in lines!!

I love you so much!

xoxo Taryn

thank you beautiful one thanks to you tonight is a beautiful one after a long messed up day..

I love you so much..

xoxo Brenda

Wow Brenda, this is one helluva
testimony of determination and
the struggle involved therein.

I can relate so deeply to you on
this one as I have been and now
and then still frequent these
places.

To say that it's impossible to
not take a break is a lie... it can
be done.

Hitting the brakes occasionally
is good.

"I'd rather be doing lines than
 writing these fucked-up poems"

I love that wrap-up but to be
honest, you are doing lines and
they're fucking great ones. :-)
 
  Dantalyon

thank you most graciously Dantalyon..

I appreciate your understanding and words of wisdom..

love Brenda

My ladyloves
...you inspire and touch me
So deeply and often. .

I hope you don't mind but I
changed your title to [Sunrise.] .
based on sun for its brightness, yet anxities
and depression thus hardcore
manias. .

Keeping writing my lovely vine!

thank you deeply Malady..

I loved your poem Cocaine Sunrise :)

love Crim

I get a rush reading this coke or no coke.  I hope writing can chase the blues away even if the craving never quite lets up.  I think everyone needs a vice and you're in control of yours it seems.  I need some weed now and then, so I know how it goes.  Went that way with meth for too many years.  Your writing is lucid and powerful, so you're winning the struggle.  Keep it up Crim!

thank you Sir Crow I'm happy this gave you a rush..

writing and reading is a great high by it's self..

love Crim

I wish I could say coke was the lesser of two evil (drugs) but all I can manage is heartache for ur struggle... praying for u my sweet one

thank you Poe for your prayers my friend..

love Crim

This poem is so powerful raw and honest.  Awesome write and thanks for sharing your struggle. :-)

thank you Sarah most kindly..

love Crim

Brenda.. only you could deliver such a heartfelt poem.. even in pain, your ink always bleeds strong.. and lets us in.. you are amazing.. never stop writing.. love always..



Dave

thank you Dave this was just a real bad morning..

love you my friend..

xoxo Brenda

loved your poem and its title, very nice spoken

thank you most graciously..

love Crim