In Your Wake

You came into my life like a gentle wind.
I wish that I had the immense power to keep
You there. I wish that I had the will

To resist your charms, but you seep
Into my pores and get under my skin.
You had this way to sweep

Me off my feet. I was walking a thin
Line between wanting you and getting you
Out of my life for good. I have been

In a hellhole, with no way of seeing the view.
You made me see both the top and the bottom.
You pushed me on through

My bad days. You balked
At the idea of coming clean before
It was too late. It was like I set off a bomb

That you did not see coming. You tore
Through my skin and kept the bleeding flowing.
I wanted to scream and roar

So you would hear me clearly. Now you are backing
Away so you would not have to deal with the damage.
I thought that we shared a common thread and thing.

The mess and blood are hard to clean up. The baggage
And skeletons that we tried so hard to cover up are
On display for us to digest and discuss. The bridge

That we tried so hard to build is crumbling and far
Away in the distance like that little light that is miles away.
I cannot let you guide me anymore like the North Star.

My inner compass is leading me astray
Right into the thick of things that I felt was wrong.
You always have a tendency to say

That I come off as too strong.
I would rather be that than weak in your eyes.
You may say that I am also headstrong.

I am not always going to tell you lies,
But I will always tell you the truth, even if it hurts.
I am not the one who always cries.

I try to hold it all together. Our efforts
Do not always match up. I push and love harder
Than you ever will. You are the one who adverts

Your eyes when there is a huge screw-up. I am smarter
Than our mistakes. I am better than our mistakes.
I am colder than a glacier

To protect myself. I know that the stakes
Are no longer high anymore. I do not worry
About you leaving me afloat. I am not crossing lakes

Anymore to get to you. I do not have to flee
And escape anymore. I do not have to worry about
Getting lost in your eyes and at sea.

I am left in your wake as our lights go out.
I never wanted to get over you, but I had to in
Order to move on. I had to figure out a new route

Around you in order to get out of this endless tailspin.
I knew that this was over before it started.
I could no longer think of this as a win.

Everything came crashing down around us with a thud.
I had to let the rain stop before there was any more
Damage and I had to drag myself out of the mud

Before it became worse. You slammed that door
Closed before it all became too much.
I am not longer on the floor

In a heaping mess. I do not need your magical touch
And you are no longer my crutch.