June 5th 2am 2016

"It gets better, just hang in there."

Biggest lie ever spoken.
For the last year and a half I have been trying so very hard to grow and accomplish more in my life, yet there seems to always be a set back, someone in the way, or myself making it impossible.

I seem to be surrounded by fake friends, not everyone, and to those that have actually been a true friend, I thank you.

I've come such a long way to seemingly have nothing to show for it, literally.

I want to cut so badly just to feel better, but I know in doing so I'll just end up hurting those who actually care for me and I want to avoid that, and that's why I keep pushing forward every day, but it just isn't getting better, and I am so tired of fighting.. I just want to give up..