Betrayal written with Devilschild

It's  been sitting uneasy
How I been so shitty
You didn’t deserve this
But when I’m with her that feeling just shuts off

Emotions rush in when I’m drunk
Always making excuses for cheating
Like you didn’t love me enough
We argue too much
Been together too long

Placing the blame, when deep down I know I’m not  even sorry.

Sitting  in my room
My back against the wall
I seen the messages
Does he realize I answered that call
The tears pour down my cheeks
Fall upon my breasts
My lip trembles
Did our love ever matter at all

Does he get satisfaction of seeing me silently dying inside.
Guess truth be told
I was changing, and so was she
Growing apart from the person I loved
Wish this hell would just end
I’m sinking in way too deep
I would just leave, but we have too much history
Texting her while my girl’s in the other room
Separating from the heart I once knew
Trying not to think of the hurt I’m causing

I know she knows… she must

So tired of hurting its anger that takes over now
I'm gonna catch him reveal his lies
Turn his twisted world upside down
Tired of crying and being the victim
Pick myself up
spit fire with my stare
He will see the anger and hate in my eyes

Tonight I’ll show him what he's losing
Break him down when I leave
I am now doing me.
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When I see her I go in for a hug
But she feels so cold
Go in to kiss her
And she turns her head
This only reminds me why this needs to end
So I look her in the eyes and come clean
Trying to save what soul I have left
The way she reacts is not of shock
But of hurting
I could only hope she finds someone better
But I would be lying if I said I didn't want .

He finally came clean
I had done too much crying
Not a tear fell from my eyes
Emptiness
I told him please just pack your things and leave
Left the room so he could have his space
There is only so much one heart can take
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