What have i become

Im lost in this girl, she knows me but she doesnt know how i feel. She couldnt care less for me. She calls us friends but she ignores me, she uses me and i let her because of what i call love. I would do anything for her and im sure there are other people in the same situation. But is it worth it. Is it worth the pain the sadness the wasted time. I would die for her she is like a little sister to me but i cant help but wonder why i do the things i do for her when she is not willing to do the same. Iv changed everything for her and now iv become something i would  have never become, a monster. If this has ever happened to you or is currently happening to you turn your back and walk away dont fight the battle. Its not worth it. The percentage is not in your favour. If she she is ignoring you now she wont change. Just find anything bad in her and make it easier to forget about her.

Her smile consumes me
her love eats my away
her eyes leave me blind
her beauty consumes mine
i can feel myself transform
like night and day
i can feel my soul drift away
shes stolen my heart
now im some heartless monster
clingy to the one thing i have
my memories of how i used to be
as i see the labels pasted to my body
jock, bad ass, punk, hottie, ripped,
manwhore, bitch, wipped, dueche,

nice, kind, lovable glance passed my eye
the transformation is not complete
but im lost in the labels
the girls screaming my name
but it doesnt matter if i dont have her
a monster i wished for is now who i am
i can turn back but its not what i want
i new identity is not enough
i fear the worst for the human race
i return the favour as if i were karma
to every person whose hurt me
but i know im no better then them
there is only one thing that can turn me back
and shes gone to another place