I'm scared

You say you love me
Yet you don't think twice about me
You make me cry every night
Like if I'm not worth your time

I never asked for everything
I only asked for you
Even when you left me
I still treated you right

When you said you loved me...
My heart believed it
But my mind is calling it lies
Cause you don't even show it

You make promises left and right
But haven't kept a single word
Even left when you said you wouldn't
What is my worth?

You can sit there and hurt me
But I'm not allowed to hurt myself
You call me childish for it
But yet you give me the reason to try it

I love you more than anything
But I guess I'll never be
Why can't I just die
My hearts giving out

I feel it as my fingers go numb
My hearts speeding up
The world is spinning
I'm trying to not throw up.