Toxic Ob$$e$ive    I $e  earch 4 my  King mong$t Men,  ,I've never let A piece go un ended.....  comments please

Orig:<906> Poetry
est 2008
by: $tr8 $av
aka d.l.b.
Wikkid Rich
Nolia

Toxic Ob$$e$ive
[I'm  truly      
Sikk inside,
Boiling up
Out of Control
Over flowing,
Drowning me,
Nothing Solid
Around me
To stop the
Collision between
The ground and me
With your words&
Your actions you
Continually pound
On me,
The fact that I'm
Still standing
Is
Astounding
2
Me.....
With your anger
And disbelief
Your hounding me
Ripping my
Self esteem,
My dignity,
You barely
Know me,
But you choose
To tell me
Everything you
Think that I
Should be,
Pushing your
Pity party
Down my throat
Using your pimpology
To hold or control me,
I'm invisible 2 you
You look str8 thru
Me,
Didn't hesitate on
First sight,
You sized me up
You labeled and
Put me in a catagory
Never to love or
Adore me,
Just be a
Mindless spineless
Clean up bitch,
No your roll and
By the way,
You will go
Who're 4 me,
While I tell you
2 your face
You'll never
Mean A fucking
Thing to me,
Talk about my
Life, my morals,
My hopes, my
Dreams,
On purpose
Disrespectfully....
I put my all into
Giving you my
Total
Loyalty,
Your game was
Begun,
Start with your
Rejecting me,
Like A prime
Cut of fresh
Meat,
Put me out on front
Street,
Butchering the
Whole of me
Treating the
Soul in me
Like a rancid cut of meat,
Had me convinced
You d be there
Protecting me,
It was meant
2 be
A blessing
4 me,
To have you
Resurrecting
Me,
Guiding me,
Into pieces
Dividing me,
Stealing what
Little bit of
Positivity,
And the last
Ray of hope
Left in me....
You abuse me
Mentally,
Impossible 4
You 2 be A
Real friend to me
Your time, your
Words, your actions,
Even sexually,
You played with
Me,
From moment
One,
Your intent
Was
Neglecting me,
Failing 2 see
From jump I
Offered my honesty
Openly,
I wanted to show
You so badly
Just how Solid
The soldier is
Inside me,
Get you 2 like me,
Genuinely,
You kept your
Strategy
Making me
Believe
What you wanted
Was me,
All the time
Plotting 2 gain
Thru me
Already counting
On and so sure of
Your pockets bulging
From the benefici
Money my
Pussy would bring....
To finally recognize
That there never
Was any truth
Within Dozens
Of
Lies
In that instant
Of reality A
Piece of your
Soul
Begin 2 die
And your walking
The track, with
The rain storming
Down
Numb, feeling invisible,
Except 4 the
Weight of the
Ache
That pounds in your chest
Reassuring you that
This confusion
And
Heartache
Will never let
You rest
To have you come
Into my life
I felt for sure
I had been blessed
Which quickly
Turned 2 doubt
Filled
Stress
I prayed for
The truth I
Hoped 4 the best
With this desire so
Strong to keep
Giving you my best
To show you,
That I do wanna know you,
That I wanna see happiness
Flowing in you,
Feeling real desire
For me
Growing
To only each
Others
Frequency
Stay tuned
And  heal my
Mind before
My heart makes
It a permanant

Wound......
/b]