The Cruelty of Duality.....for a bipolar rollercoaster competition... represents my worst...today i have joy and love.

I live love emote and relate
In maddening roller coaster phases
My mind of extremes.. emotional haze
Great swell induced rage and irrationnelles
Smack my true nature down like a bitch
Shackle me to hateful ugly paranoia
Leave thoughts racing at suicide pitch
I wear kaleidoscopic shades
Disturbing frame of reference
Disolve correct sight....
They (shades) flip flop what should be
Make black what is quite white
Make wrong what is quite right
Turn the joy shine of day
Into a terror darkness blanket of night
The blanket never quite covers cold feet that ache and need warmth
I run and run far and fast in mind...
No matter my pull and tug and fight
Wrestle a madmans grip for a night..
I have wrestled a lifetime
It is crazy making and ï am tired
Days no sleep causes blurr of sight
An insomniacs backwards
In desperate need of the vertical
Please God give balance and sit me upright.......