Unstability of the Dancing Illusions

  “Medication that they give me does not work
My muscles twitch and my body still hurt,
“Unstable illusions dance always across my sight
Check please! Because a fool like me ain’t right,

“‘Nerves constantly shot like a motherfucker
Having me send letters to mama saying I love her,
“But she refuses to respond, treating me like dried piss
So she can suck on my ass and choke on the shit,

 “Even at my highest point-I still feel at basement bottom
Just like a suicide bomber the police know they have to stop em’,
“Showing the non-believers that I’m mentally lost
Not caring about laws I really don’t give a fuck about,

“Diabolical delusions make me cause my own contusions
Now at this point any help I’m refusing,
“Fucking with me is summoning a shitstorm of hell
Truly unwanted like bills and junk mail,

“Nobody wants to be near me because of my vulnerability
Somebody give me a gun so I can set myself free,
“Either to the face or up under the jaw
Or in the mouth where I can blowjob the barrel raw.”