she would give anything …..

to wipe away
the pictures
of him
that pop in her head
like gunshots
going off

him suddenly paralyzed
not able to breathe on his own
trying so desperately
to tell her something
but unable to write it down
so many IVs
connected to tubes
and too many machines

all she wanted to do
was climb into the bed
with him
and hold him
let him know
how much she loved him

instead they rushed him
into surgery
trying desperately
to save him

holding his hand
kissing his forehead
she told him
she loved him
and that he was going
to do great

just a short time later
there was a code blue
in the OR

the team of doctors, nurses
and surgeons
came in teary eyed
and she knew