190 Pills

I count them out...
They are so colorful...
Can you imagine...
Dying by your favorite color?
I'll convince someone
To buy me my favorite rum
I'll take the pills with it
Up by the lake too far for anyone
To ever think if saving me
My phone will be there
I want to die to my favorite song
I'll make a fire and watch it burn
I'll fade away slowly...
But I won't answer anyone's texts
I don't want anyone to know
How much it hurts to do this
But I can't see anyway
To salvage my disaster...