Wonder

Anger flowing through me like lava running from a volcano,
I don't know how to let it go, I have heard just forgive and
forget, but that is the problem I can't forget,

I can't forget the anger, the hurt, or the fact for a month my,
girls cried everyday for their daddy who was 3000 miles away
not because we split up, not because he was trying to start
a new life he was just there doing his own thing

Well I sat here trying to calm my kids every night because
they thought their half sister took their daddy away, in a way
they where right, I have often wondered as he went to get on
that bus did he even think once about his wife and kids?

Did he care that it was going to fuck up his kids?
Or fuck up his marriage, did he even want this life back
before he got onto that bus?

Or was he planning on starting a new life and moving on?
Cause he had to know that I was going to be mad as hell
that he just got on a bus and didn't even have the balls
to say anything to his children, I would never walk away
from my kids no matter what was going on,

Up until that day I always though we where his life heart and soul,
but he proved that was not the case because he had no problem
running off,

I wonder does he hold me a fault because his daughter
wont talk to him anymore because he came back here,
does he blame me for it not working out when she was
here?
Does he think I should have tried harder, or could have
just let her act any old way and just let him deal with it?

He has never really told me much so I don't know, but I
do know I will always wonder.........