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Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
Don't test me; never test the depths of this mother's love
If stark truth you do not wish to face
My children, they come first always
You second to them, dead last in every case
You said you loved me
I said I loved you too
You said put me first
I said, honestly, that will I never do
Don't test me: never test the depths of this mother's love
One night we went to dinner, just us two
We ordered entrées and did eat
When it came time for dessert, I ordered a snack to take it home
Your eyes flashed for you knew I ordered with her in mind
Stark truth glaring you in the face
We argued as we sometimes did
This time about your speech, which I then asked that you temper when speaking to my daughter
At times, I felt you were too harsh, too peremptory, and too brash
You agreed and so our argument was done
Don't test me: never test the depths of this mother's love
You'd lied to me; this was plain to see
On that Mother's Day, I woke to you yanking my daughter out of bed
Standing over her yelling who knows what, her cowering before you barely awake
That moment, snatched I my daughter up, and spared you not a second thought
Put her in my car, came back in, and grabbed a few necessities
To your pleas with me, this I said:
I told you not to test me: never test the depths of this mother's love
If stark truth (you'll lose!) you do not wish to face
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Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
5th Jul 2015 3:01pm
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5th Jul 2015 6:55pm
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5th Jul 2015 8:46pm
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5th Jul 2015 8:47pm
Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
5th Jul 2015 3:48pm
My heart aches for the mothers who will forgo their children's best interest for the sake of "love" and fear of not being alone.
Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of little children. ~ William Makepeace Thackery
Nice thought provoking piece, Savaja.
Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of little children. ~ William Makepeace Thackery
Nice thought provoking piece, Savaja.
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Ahavati, luv ~ :-*
I, admittedly, have trouble aching for the mothers when faced with my agony for the children. Just because one is afraid of being alone and wants love is no reason to abandon what is, I believe, the absolute greatest love available ever, frankly. Certainly, the purest expression of it, to my mind.
Children love without condition, they love because of who you are within their lives, because their beings emanate from yours initially.
Meh, I cannot logically explain this one. I freely admit that. I understand stupidity; I'm human, prone to it in abundance. I got in the relationship in the first place with a nitwit who said, I want to be the most important thing in your life. I simply didn't believe anyone could really mean more important than my daughter, especially after I said, well, not more important than my child. I was wrong.
(I mean, how are you ever gonna be more important than a beloved creature I carried inside my body for months and then labored for 36 hours to deliver into the world and then ended up having a Cesarean to bring forth?!)
Yeah, that was the end of that.
But, I have friends who chose differently, whose children have come to me with their deep pain. And, yes, my friends have their damage and their deep-seated needs.
I get it. I really do, but the children always come first in my head, and perhaps most importantly, my heart.
William Makepeace Thackery has the right of it:
Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of little children.
Thank you, Ahavati, luv. :-* You always make me ruminate.
I, admittedly, have trouble aching for the mothers when faced with my agony for the children. Just because one is afraid of being alone and wants love is no reason to abandon what is, I believe, the absolute greatest love available ever, frankly. Certainly, the purest expression of it, to my mind.
Children love without condition, they love because of who you are within their lives, because their beings emanate from yours initially.
Meh, I cannot logically explain this one. I freely admit that. I understand stupidity; I'm human, prone to it in abundance. I got in the relationship in the first place with a nitwit who said, I want to be the most important thing in your life. I simply didn't believe anyone could really mean more important than my daughter, especially after I said, well, not more important than my child. I was wrong.
(I mean, how are you ever gonna be more important than a beloved creature I carried inside my body for months and then labored for 36 hours to deliver into the world and then ended up having a Cesarean to bring forth?!)
Yeah, that was the end of that.
But, I have friends who chose differently, whose children have come to me with their deep pain. And, yes, my friends have their damage and their deep-seated needs.
I get it. I really do, but the children always come first in my head, and perhaps most importantly, my heart.
William Makepeace Thackery has the right of it:
Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of little children.
Thank you, Ahavati, luv. :-* You always make me ruminate.
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5th Jul 2015 4:14pm
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5th Jul 2015 7:44pm
Thank you, Gahddess_Worship, luv. :-*
You are very kind to me. The truth is that I was an idiot to become involved in that particular relationship. I should have left earlier. :-(
You are very kind to me. The truth is that I was an idiot to become involved in that particular relationship. I should have left earlier. :-(
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Anonymous
5th Jul 2015 4:33pm
well done. I can relate and I enjoyed the passion and strength that came through in this read.
thanks :)
thanks :)

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Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
5th Jul 2015 7:52pm
Thank you, mikimoondancer, luv. :-*
Definitely, I am fierce about my children. :-*
I am glad you found somewhat to relate to within this poem, luv.
Definitely, I am fierce about my children. :-*
I am glad you found somewhat to relate to within this poem, luv.
Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
5th Jul 2015 4:51pm
I love this because within my extended family, and with my job I see so many women on the other on the other side of the spectrum ... Any guy who can make them sweat in the sheets and treats them to ihop in the morning becomes "daddy" ... Until the next.
... The kids wind up screwed for life, and it becomes cyclical from one generation to the next.
Bravo! Sis, Bravo!
... The kids wind up screwed for life, and it becomes cyclical from one generation to the next.
Bravo! Sis, Bravo!
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Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
5th Jul 2015 8:30pm
Ahhh, LobodeSanPedro, luv ~ :-*
Brother mine, your words sadden me so greatly. Our children are our greatest gifts and responsibilities. My perspective has meant I've spent a lot of years as a single parent. I'd rather do that, I suppose, and write deeply yearning poetry than cause irrevocable damage out of loneliness. ;-p
Brother mine, your words sadden me so greatly. Our children are our greatest gifts and responsibilities. My perspective has meant I've spent a lot of years as a single parent. I'd rather do that, I suppose, and write deeply yearning poetry than cause irrevocable damage out of loneliness. ;-p
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5th Jul 2015 5:54pm
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6th Jul 2015 7:25am
Thank you so very, very much, DadaDoggyDannyKozakSaxfn, luv. :-*
Yes, tis my song, regardless of all else.
Yes, tis my song, regardless of all else.
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re: Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
6th Jul 2015 7:42am
Ahhh, Taryn, tis true, you know. Tis a horribly failed Villanelle. I'll have to work on another as I transposed my lines. Meh. :-p
Ah well...if at first, failure, at least there remains somewhat for which to strive. ;-D Tis all about learning and growing and honing anyway... ;-*
Thank YOU, Taryn, luv. :-* I didn't say a great deal about my reasons for leaving, though she knew I was done as soon as she was mistreated, because I never wanted her to feel it was her fault that I left.
Thank you again, luv, so much. :-*
Ah well...if at first, failure, at least there remains somewhat for which to strive. ;-D Tis all about learning and growing and honing anyway... ;-*
Thank YOU, Taryn, luv. :-* I didn't say a great deal about my reasons for leaving, though she knew I was done as soon as she was mistreated, because I never wanted her to feel it was her fault that I left.
Thank you again, luv, so much. :-*
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6th Jul 2015 7:46am
Ahhh, Gabriel, luv ~ :-*
Thank you very much, luv. Every time you say this, I have this urge to gather you close and love you, love you so well - let you run as needed for that kind of love is a shock when one hasn't had it, ne c'est pas? But, let you know, the love remains whenever you need the warmth... :-* :-* :-*
Thank you very much, luv. Every time you say this, I have this urge to gather you close and love you, love you so well - let you run as needed for that kind of love is a shock when one hasn't had it, ne c'est pas? But, let you know, the love remains whenever you need the warmth... :-* :-* :-*
Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
5th Jul 2015 11:04pm
Strong, courageous, heartfelt ink
Makes me sad when families are divided
Speechless
Makes me sad when families are divided
Speechless
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6th Jul 2015 8:47am
Ahhh, Granite, luv ~ :-*
Thank you, mon ami, so very much.
I did not mean to leave you sans speech, luv. ;-p Tis really the only time I am fierce in this way. ;-*
Thank you, mon ami, so very much.
I did not mean to leave you sans speech, luv. ;-p Tis really the only time I am fierce in this way. ;-*
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6th Jul 2015 3:36am
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6th Jul 2015 8:52am
Ahhh, REKS24, luv ~ :-*
I wish that as well. And, yes, you are right; tis an issue that there are those who encourage such relationship desperation rather than encouraging and supporting efforts to nurture children first.
I wish that as well. And, yes, you are right; tis an issue that there are those who encourage such relationship desperation rather than encouraging and supporting efforts to nurture children first.
Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
7th Jul 2015 6:16pm
Fine work Savaja. Hope you blasted this abusive jerk right out the door. There's no firepower like a mother's love.
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Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
7th Jul 2015 9:36pm
Thank you, crowfly, luv, very much for your vociferous defense. :-* I left and never returned save to move our belongings.
Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
7th Jul 2015 11:02pm
Am here, have been doing work on my phone as my computer has seen the last of its days I think.
Oh my dear lovely one, I had to come and share this sentiment with you as a mother first and far most. Must confess, my eyes see your strengths shine beautifully in this piece and its attractive, heart clenching and soul grasping. A salute and bow darling
Oh my dear lovely one, I had to come and share this sentiment with you as a mother first and far most. Must confess, my eyes see your strengths shine beautifully in this piece and its attractive, heart clenching and soul grasping. A salute and bow darling
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Re: Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
8th Jul 2015 7:03am
I comprehend your agony, Noire HowlingWhelms, luv, if your phone does not have a separate, distinct keyboard. ;-p I do virtually everything on my phone, but tis a BlackBerry Q10, so I count myself most fortunate. I'd be rather lost without it. :-*
I hope your computer surprises you and recovers admirably, luv.
Thank you so, so much for coming and sharing with me, dear heart. :-*
You are most kind to me seeing strengths when I see, most clearly, my weaknesses. Thank you again, dear luv.
I hope your computer surprises you and recovers admirably, luv.
Thank you so, so much for coming and sharing with me, dear heart. :-*
You are most kind to me seeing strengths when I see, most clearly, my weaknesses. Thank you again, dear luv.
Re. Mother's Love: a failed Villanelle
Anonymous
- Edited 16th Jul 2015 2:04pm
16th Jul 2015 1:45pm
I have a daughter so of course this resonates strong with me...actually had me pissed off as I continued reading. You knew from the beginning when he said he "put you first" how potentially dangerous a sentiment that can be and you CHECKED him from the start. We live in a time where some people are very quick in trying to assume their place in others lives. A person can have so many great qualities but it'll be that ONE overriding negative quality that goes against your CORE that makes it a deal breaker....LOVE how you handled your bizness Savaja....much respect!!!!!!!!

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18th Jul 2015 4:55am
Thank you very much, Naajir, luv. :-* I am glad this resonated so with you and I appreciate your kind support of me; I can only wish I'd jettisoned the situation more rapidly than I did (like before it began!) Alas...
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13th Aug 2015 9:17pm
Newgod, luv ~ :-*
Hmmm...
I do not mean to trivialize this subject in any way, so if that is somehow the impression I've given, I am wondering if I must needs correct it by adding voice to this piece...
Thank you for your illuminating comments. I will certainly consider your words with some care, though I must say, I am not overly fond of overt, deliberately planned rhyming, oft-times. Tis a personal preference, though, and sometimes, I admit, I play with rhyme quite wittingly; other times I find myself engaging in rhyme unbeknownst to myself only to discover when others point it out... :-p
I lay no claim to song writer, luv; merely a poet am I, betimes... :-*
Hmmm...
I do not mean to trivialize this subject in any way, so if that is somehow the impression I've given, I am wondering if I must needs correct it by adding voice to this piece...
Thank you for your illuminating comments. I will certainly consider your words with some care, though I must say, I am not overly fond of overt, deliberately planned rhyming, oft-times. Tis a personal preference, though, and sometimes, I admit, I play with rhyme quite wittingly; other times I find myself engaging in rhyme unbeknownst to myself only to discover when others point it out... :-p
I lay no claim to song writer, luv; merely a poet am I, betimes... :-*