I hate me

I hate me I hate me I hate me
I'm no good
I can't stop sinning
I was for warned
I was warned a hundered times and I did it anyway
I'm worthless no good son
I barely do anything good
And there he is
Of corse He's here
The're all here
Looking at me
Crying for me
I'm a bloody failure
I'm no good
I shouldn't be here
I should be burning in hell
But he won't let me go
Your not a fair God
Your not just I don't see it
Your not kind
Your mirciful
Your loving
Your beyond kind
Your perfect
Why do you do this
I desserve to burn
I had wickedness and lust written all over me
I felt the demon
And I didn't stop
I was told
I could of
But no
Because you where second
I put me on charge
I said I was you
I said fuck you to your face
I told the Holy Spirit
That I knew better
That I'm you
That I'm in charge
That I can do it better
I did these wicked wicked things to you
After the 1000 warnings
The repent now sigh
Everywhere
I hate me
But your here
Your here now
And you don't hate me
You don't hate me
You don't
You love me
I don't listen
I don't fear you
I'm just ugly
And your here
Your Spirit is here now
Bring tears to me
Why are you so kind
I want burn
But you say no
I don't ask for this
I'm tired of hurting people
I'm tied of hurting myself
I'm tied of braking your heart
I wanna die
I don't even want to exsist right now
But you say no
I matter
You say I matter
I am so vile
If you thought like a man you'd kill me
you strike me down and burn me
Forget I ever was born
But no!
You cry
You cry for me
Angels cry for me
You hold back your wrath
I desserve it
I really desserve it
I am more deserving than anyone else
I knowing warned and pleaded with sinned
I'm no good
If you gave me law not to fly with a jet pack
I'd probably build one to spite you
And I'm nothing without you
I'm evil
I'm disobedant
I'm in tears of joy
Because of you
You perfect Father
I don't know why you do these things
I don't want this sin anymore
I hate it
It's a disgrace to everything you are
I want you
I need you
Why are you so perfect
You put up with me
How does anyone go to hell with a God like you
How do they?
Do they fall on there knee's and beg?
Most everyone does
And yet you won't let me
You give me the best
You give me the grace
You give me the knowledge
You give me the best love
You give me the best angel
You give me all authority to cast out evil
And I let it in
I do it
Beat me please
Please beat me
Cut my heart out
That's the problem
It's not my eyes or ears or hand or dick
It's my heart that's where the evil starts
I let it in
God darn you
Your too good
I can't win
You just keep sending me love
You don't stop
Your pour grace over me
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
I wish I never had to repent
I don't want to repent
I just don't want to fall in the frist place
I'm gonna go
And I'm gonna bring a hot meal
To a homeless man
And I'm gonna sit and talk with him
And I'm gonna try to love him like you love me
I'm tired of my way
My way is shit
Your the only answer
I'm so sorry