Pain of loving someone who doesnt love you back

Its it so hard for you to see
Than maybe just maybe i'm trying to hide the pain
That I feel like I cant breathe
And Its so hard to explain
What I see when I look at you
Why I turn my head when our eyes meet
Only you can make me smile the way I do
The reason why its so hard for me to sleep
Can you be so blind to how I feel
That you have forgotten you stolen my heart
Hiding behind fake smiles and attitude is the only way I know to deal
Instead of letting you see me fall apart
Its crazy how in such a short time
Things have changed this much
I miss feeling like you were mine
Instead of everything being so hush hush
Every day I ask myself changed
Was it because I kept holding back from opening up
Left too much unsaid and unexplained
Or maybe because once again I started to cut
Either way this hurts like hell
Especially since I fought so hard all these years not to fall in love
But you came into my life and I had no way of catching myself before I fell
For once you made me feel like maybe I am enough
I guess it was all lies just to get between my thighs
But that doesnt explain why you had me move in
Keep having me believe your lies
I love you, I cant just be your friend
Not when we still have intimate moments
And no matter how hard i try I cant tell you no
You play so rough and look at me as if to say "it hurts dont it"
The pain you cause emotionally mixed with the bruises that show
Just how deep I fell in love with the devil
Feeling half alive, half dead
Torn between being happy with what we have and feeling resentful
But unable to free myself from your beautifully barbed web