To My Sleeping Lover...

I wonder why my heart aches every time I'm alone when you are gone?
You may be gone for days and weeks,
And I just sit here and wait for your return,
Yet, I don't mind being alone...
I've lived my life alone...but time I can't help but cry
I don't know where you are,
Or what you are doing,
All I can do is thrust you,
And hope that you won't break my heart.
I may spend days away from you,
Mostly because I'm scared.
I'm scared that you'll see me at my weakest point,
Drowning in my tears,
Crying out,
Holding myself for comfort...
Crying out, begging for affection,
Wanting to smile without force,
From the pain of being alone without you
I fear the worst, yet I know the truth,
That you love me and that I can't be without you,
I may act like I could care less,
But I do, I'm just too shy and scared express them to you.
You tell me stories of your past,
Of all the old flames you had.
And I get scared and even jealous at times
I feel that I can never be like them,
But I know I can never break your heart,
I've spent years being your friend,
While I hid my love for you...a puppy's love or a crush
I knew that from the day I met you,
You'll be one that can protect me,
With the love I always wanted and needed.