Confessions

It's time for an admission.
It's time to finally come clean.
I want to do things to you
Things better not said in polite company.

I want to kiss you, Dearest
It kills me how I squandered
The opportunities to press
My lips against yours
The fear of losing myself
It got in the way
I regret not kissing you, Dearest.

I want to touch you, Dearest.
I want to let go
And enjoy the feeling of
My finger tips and palms
Sliding around the contours of your body
Finding the spots that
Make you shake, moan, and gasp
I regret not touching you, Dearest.

I want to taste you, Dearest.
I want to run my tongue
Down your neck, over your chest
I want to lick your nipples
Paint a wet line down
Your Trail of Paradise
And just suck your dick
I regret not tasting you, Dearest.

I want to fuck you, Dearest.
Any way is fine with me
I'll take it in any position
You desire me to try
I want to have you pound me
Until I am screaming your name
Soaring to heights uncharted
I regret not fucking you, Dearest.

I know I am delusional
I know you stopped thinking
About me in the way I do you
A very long time ago.
I am in love with you
I always have been
You don't seem to understand
Just what you mean to me.

I want to give you everything
Everything I have written to explain
These deep rooted feelings
I clutch buried inside my heart
Are probably unrequited
I understand, I really do
But in my heart I always long
For you to say you love me too.

That you remember
The times we had when
We were still together
And that your love hasn't faded away.
That I drive you crazy
The way you do to me.
The way I burn for you.
The way I dream about you.

Most Importantly
The most tragic of it all

I want to be there for you, Dearest.
I want to share your joy.
I want to share your pain.
I want to lift you up.
I want to balance you.
I want to be your best friend.
I want to be your confidante.
I regret not being there for you, Dearest.

I apologize from the bottom,
Of my heart for what happened
Losing you made a part of
My heart wither away
You were my whole world
The best part of who
I wanted to be in life
My first shattered dream.

I can only imagine what
It was like for you.
You never talk about it, Dearest.
You never tell me if
Losing me hurt you as badly
As it did to me
Or if you just moved on
Another day in life?

You believe now in love
Love at first sight?
You were mine.
I knew it existed when
I laid my eyes on you in class
And I know I sound creepy stalker
But I will always be here
And I will love you unto eternity.