Stay Alive

why am i here today?
there's nothing i can do today
that doesn't involve cutting or drinking
my problem away, living
has become so hard for me to bare
with everyone that i cared for
leaving me
or cursing me
to a fate of loneliness
of remembrance
looking towards the clouds
wondering how he's doing
livin' life to the fullest
watching me,crying 'cause of the bulletthat ended not only his life
but mine as well?
i'll never know unless
i go to join him
an offer so tempting
that i think of givin'
my body to the ground
and just lay around
with him all day
forgettin' everything
a never ending story
that will never get boring

but i remember my strive
to stay alive 
the promise i made
to stay alive
the words i write
to stay alive
the books i read
to stay alive 
the time i give
to stay alive
the never ending word
to stay alive
the will i have
to stay alive