The 7up In The Spotlight

Here beginneth  the lesson
Social anxiety to me is like
When anybody else is asked an awkward question
What are your views on abortion
Do you think the prison system works
That's what “How are you” sounds like
When introduced to my quirks
I am an introvert
And I can't convert
It's just how I'm built
From the ground up
If everyone else is coke
I'm 7up
And when asked did I enjoy the movie by my friends
Or was it slow paced
I feel dozens of eyes on me
And a heat on my face
Of a spotlight
And I don't know
If my answer's right
And I don't know
I don't know!
I JUST DON'T KNOW!!!
A hundred things are going through my mind
And my brain is going super nova
My friends are still staring at me
By now the movie would be twice over
So I just shrug
I shurg and say “It was alright”
And my face goes dark
Because I turn off the spotlight

Now this is not all I am
It's just a part of me
And I am so scared
That this is the part you'll see
Because
You came along
Dark hair
No care
Your clothing conceals
But says it's all there
And you glide in ways angels envy
Over to my table
And you sit down and call me good looking and i'm thinking
I am not able
But then someone sits with us
And our table has a crowd
Which I love cause two people are quiet
But three people are loud
There's less pressure on me
When I'm not the only one you see
And questions are scattered
When in a crowd made of three
So
We get to talking
And I actually contribute to the conversation
But I'm sitting there thinking to myself
This feels like procrastination
And that heat is a question away
Hotter than the light of day
But if I don't see the spotlight
You won't hear what I've got to say
So I wait for the right time
To break every rule of mine
By saying
“Would you like to hear a joke”
AM I BRAIN DEAD
AM I OFF MY BIN ON YOKES
The sweat on my face is glistening
There's a crowd waiting and listening
But so are you
And for the first time
The spotlight is something I choose
So I say something
funny
And I'm standing there as you chuckle
And I lean on the table
Because my knees
They buckle
And I want to do it again
I want to stand in the spotlight and then
I want your pretty green eyes to shine all over me
And I don't want to be in a crowd made of three
I want you and me

Now time has passed
And I'm really trying
I googled comedians doing stand up
And I want to ask
Do you drink coke or 7up
And I haven't asked you out yet
But there's a tectonic shift
And change is set
Cause I walked out of the cinema
And was asked how it was by my friends
And I saw that spotlight but I said
“I was happy to reach the end
The movie was absolute crap
A waste of my money
And I know jokes
That are twice as funny”
Cause there's a kind of man
Who you deserve
A man who can talk about
Any topic served
So I don't just shrug
And I don't say it's alright
Cause I want to hold hands and kiss
I want to do this in moonlight
Look
Talking to people
Will always fit me like a three fingered glove
But talking to you fits in the heart
It fits in there like love