Agonizing love

To suffer in the agony of love
Doing whatever he wants
I am dependent
Unable to go on
Without the touch from his arms
Lied and cheated
Played me and other women
Though I forgive him and still hold on
To a faith that he will grow up
I'm lost and empty
I feel love, but hate
I don't know what I'm doing
It's like he's all I got
I'm so dependent...
So I let him yell at me
I let him blame me
Yet I let him love me
And let him take me

Here I am
A few months later
Is there a new life coming?
Something we're not ready for...
Contemplating murder
of an innocent unborn
Just to keep that love
Of the one man who could ever understand

Honestly, someone help me...