scrap piece 31

please include me.

i feel like such an outsider

i dont matter to anyone keeps repeating in my head and im starting to believe it, i wish, i pray for some nice thoughts, some feeling that would make even breathing seem beautiful

im choked up, lost and in pain. im running away but there is no where i want to go. i want to kiss you without you pulling away, i want you to see me. what's happening to me.

i want to stop crying, I want to stop trying. i want to stop believing 'i dont matter anymore'

I try and hide and hold back all my anger. I try to live with peace in my mind but its chaos in me right now. I need... to finally stop everything and  decorate the cemetery with a name like 'Ebony'