I Miss You

You've been gone for a month now, Dad.
Let's remember all the memories we had.
Today you would have been forty-six.
I cry so much, I feel like I'm sick.

My stomach and eyes hurt.
Hurting this much is a first.
I never thought I would miss someone this much.
I did not expect to lose my dad just last month.

I didn't expect to carry his grandchild.
I just can't let my feelings go all wild.
I'd cry and scream all day long.
I'd search for a place where I belong.

It seems as if no one cares about me now.
I thought they'd all care, I don't know how.
You're the main one who would have been there.
You're the main one who would have cared.  

I wish everything could erase.
I wish that I could see your face.
I want everything the way it was.
Rewind you leaving, stop, and pause.

I would spend the day with you and never leave.
You would be so shocked and maybe not even believe.
I'd love the happiness you'd finally feel.
I just wish that this dream would be real.