The Illusion of the Labyrinth

The feeling within is
Ripping me to shreds
My heart is bleeding and corroding
With your mixed signals and signs
Those many years ago
You don’t even have a clue
How much it still affects my soul
 
The many years you teased
But at a distance and always saying no
At the same time of putting yourself in my face
And when I fell for you
You simply upped the dosage
Full well knowing what it was doing to me
 
To this day you act as if it never occurred
That we were always friends
Never anything between us
Like ripping me to shreds and forgetting you did
Such an allure you held on me yet you kept stabbing
Ripping me away and causing a suicide
And even then you still kept going
 
Day in day out I still blame thyself
For not seeing past your illusion your sick “game”
You told me to figure out the labyrinth and I tried
And this day I realize it’s many things
Love, Life, and Hope
All of which are the falsehood
Created by the illusion of the labyrinth
 
You left me with a life in hell
Tears gone for they have all dried
Cause I’ve already shed enough for a lifetime
For the suffering you put me through
Even my subconscious soul is still afflicted
I still can’t love can’t trust can’t feel anything
But either the numbness or the pain you bestowed upon me
Those years ago
 
I loved you then yet I don’t know the feeling now
All that’s left is the dark pain from it all
Everyday I curse myself for being so blind
To your game and to your lies the illusion you built
It was obvious to one with common sense
Yet I was lost in my own head
Lost between love and the reaper
 
So now I lay here tonight within this dark fury
A blackened aura surrounding my soul
As ice runs through my veins and fire burns my flesh
The suffering of the memories is still potent
I still feel the pure pain I felt when it grew to physical collapse
And I don’t know how much longer I can last

Owned by Dustin Smith: Bastardofbodom666